Too interested

In my mind I thought that I was going to read a little of the book then write how I felt. But that changed when I decided to pick up the book, continue to read and never return to the computer. I want to meet Jaycee. I totally understand what happened here. I dont quite like how the relationship that she had with her step father is talked about in a way that we are suppose to feel like Jaycee liked the affection Phillip gave towards her because of her not so great relationship with him. I think it mightve played a little part but not the main role. She was held captive and treated like an animal. We are animals actually. So "training" her into thinking that she could never survive without him, was simple. She is a very brave woman and was a super brave girl. i pray that she continues to find postiveness in all of this. She deserves to be loved.

An Innocent life

   I have been interested about the life of Jaycee Dugard. I decided to pre order her book when it went on sale. It was on back order for 2 weeks. Sigh. I guess I can wait. So I waited and waited. i began to wonder what is going on with my order. i finally realized that I never finalized the payment and the book has never been on its way. So finally, its here! I opened it yesterday and began my read.

  Here I am on the couch, ready to be Jaycee D. Just as I was a young lady before, experiencing young lady things, Jaycee was going through the same issues. Her father had never played a role in her life which for some are reasons that one might attach to a male in their life that they feel will play this role. She has a step father who has a portrayal that he is stern and acts as a "stepdad". We know the term that a child feels like they are being treated as a step child. That is when they feel that the married into the family parent doesnt treat them like their own. This is an issue in alot of families. He hasnt been in her life for a long time but her mother does have  a daughter with him. The impression that I got is that she was feeling a sort of abandonment from him even though he was the father in her life and he lives in the household. Jaycee's sister is a toddler and she gets much more attention from him than she does. JD (my nickname for Jaycee) is at the age where she needs to be listened to and be able to voice her opinion.

   JD and her mother have an exceptional relationship. They have that bond that can never be broken. She was a single mother and took pride in being a great mother. She worked alot to make sure they SHE PROVIDED for the family. Her husband stayed at home working on his car in the garage, daily. But no complaint from her. She went off to work early which made her not be able to wake JD up in the morning for school,nor cook her breakfast and never being able to drive her to school. Even though her stepfather was home in the mornings,JD would have to wake herself up, make her own breakfast and walk to school.

  The morning of the kidnapping, JD didnt want to got to school. She had a feeling in her stomach that was making her feel weird. she wanted to act sick but she knew her stepfather wouldnt go for that. She left anyway.  Wishing he would watch her walk down the street as if he cares, never happens. She walks the exact path that she was taught in order to be safe. She walks alone. Fun, end of the school year activities fill her head that make her overjoyed and afraid. She cant wait for the end of the year field trip to the waterpark but she doesnt want everyone to see her non shaved body. Others are shaved but she hasnt gotten around to ask yet if she could but she has a week. She can hear a car coming up the street but for some reason it never passes her, so she never sees it. Her body goes limp. Her muscles are not working. She cant move. Trying to hold on for dear life to the Earth but she cant. She is overpowered by something or someone.